Wednesday, 2 December 2009

Every Now and Then...

Things get difficult.

But that is only because you can handle it. I wish to believe that we are not faced with problems we cannot solve.

I'm not there yet, but I believe I'm on the way. I'm a lot stronger now: I have overcome a lot of the fears and insecurities and I no longer carry them with me every waking minute of my life. But I'm not strong enough yet…


Physically, I'm pretty messed up and I'm not sure how much of that is psychological.

If you'd ask me, I'd say not much. Not because I'd rather it not be psychological.

I just know. And you can see some of the times, especially if you're a little low on luck. Like my mother is.

But most of the times you can't and people look at you weird.

Teachers think you're lazy; you're making excuses, that you pay too much attention to yourself. Friends think you'd rather not spend time with them, that you're proud and haughty and so will not move, act, or play like them.

It's okay though.

You're the only one living your life and you know what's true and what isn't about it.

I'm fighting this, trust me, I so am.

I'm going to be stronger. I'm going to excel in my field.

Maybe not right away, but I am.

So what if I have to wait for a while, so long as I get there eventually?

So what if I have weaknesses that my counterparts don't?

I have my strengths too.


Ayesha said...

I absolutely love the honesty. You'll get there, and I know it :)

TeNsEiGa To Me said...

Aww...thank you girl, seriously...
'getting there' means everything to me...

Nikita said...

You wrote from your heart... and it's BRILLIANT! It's so beautiful and honest, I had to read it out and ensure others heard it and knew how absolutely brilliant you are!! We love what you have written and we love you. And you should know this- we understand you and always have! And well we know where you're headed too.. Right at the Top: that's where your place is, Tooper ;)

TeNsEiGa To Me said...

(just couldnt resist the 'topper' part, could ya!?)

love u guys...thx SO MUCH niki!!!
thank u...